Anyone who has been reading my blog knows that I am in counseling for my panic disorder & depression. On Tuesday I had my first appointment with the psychiatrist. He gave me prescriptions for Zoloft & Ambien. Zoloft will help treat the depression & social anxiety issues & Ambien is a sleeping pill. I only filled the script for Zoloft, because -DAMN!- meds are expensive without insurance.
I am not too thrilled to be taking a pill every day in hopes that it will make me feel better, but I am desperate to try anything. I have only a few months until Xander's birthday, then Christmas & Jackie's birthday. I really want to get a job so I can spoil these kids. I honestly feel that if there is a chance Zoloft will help, I'm going to take it.
Anyway, I started the Zoloft yesterday. I followed the instructions on the bottle instead of the instructions the doctor had written on a paper for me to bring home. I was supposed to take 25 mgs for the first few doses, and increase it over 2 weeks, until I got up to 100 mgs, apparently. I ended up taking the full 100 mgs yesterday. I was so tired! It literally knocked me out. I was in bed by 11 and woke up at 5:30 today, feeling very rested & better than I have in a while. I guess all I needed was a good nights sleep!
So, as I said, I woke up at 5:30 this morning & I felt like I could take on the world. I used my Yoga DVD & while it was more challenging than I thought it would be, I loved it! I think I might want to start doing Yoga on a regular basis. I picked up a bunch of DVD's from the library yesterday, and most of them were Yoga related. I am going to pick my 2 favorites and purchase them.
After using that DVD, I used one of my Jillian Michaels DVD's. It's now my favorite, I like it even more than 30DS! 30DS is a great workout, but I got bored with it. I am glad that I now have 15 fitness DVD's to choose from! Plus an additional 7 from the library at the moment.
So, after all that, I decided to use the recumbent bike for a while. I burned 400 calories. It took a bit longer than usual because I had to keep my pace slow so I wouldn't wake anyone else up. The bike is a bit loud.
I spent the rest of the morning with the kids, just lounging around. I popped in a new movie my father got the kids and decided to use the Nordic Track for a bit. In 45 minutes, I burned 850 calories! I am no longer counting miles, but calories instead. I don't know how much I burn from my DVD's, so I am hoping to burn at least 1000 calories a day split between the 2 machines.
I've been much better about working out, let's hope the trend continues. I really loved waking up early & getting most of the exercise done before anyone was awake! It was so much more relaxing than trying to work out with the kids running around.
I am a bit worried about weight gain with Zoloft. When I was a teenager & I took it, I lost a lot of weight. I am reading up on the drug & it appears that while it is not "known" to cause weight gain, it can happen. Oh boy. I guess if I am happier, that's all that matters. I really believe that if the Zoloft can stabilize my mood & allow me to function a bit more normally in social situations, that I will lose weight. I will be able to have a job, and feel better about myself all around. We'll see though. If anyone has any experience with Zoloft, I would love to hear what it did for you!